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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 18:32

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But, we were locked up after school.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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It was going to be , some day.

I couldn’t, believe it.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

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All the time i was locked up.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Was to survive, this bastard.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I said to her

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I don,t even have a pension.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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One cannot live in the past .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

What did i know ?

So whats the point in blame.

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was scared of men, in general

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He knew the spot.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I have no regrets .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My family never makes their pension either.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

As i do to all so called friends.?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was seconnd youngest,

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But it wasn’t much.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She found it foreign!.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Who then, do I blame.?

And i lived it daily.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

So, i spoilt her more .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I waited trembling.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Put me off passion for life!!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

This is soul school!.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

We were not on the streets..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

When she asked me how she looked .

I was very sick at this time too.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My life is so biszare .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Im still living with it.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Would this be the day?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Especially a lifetime of it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She was in good health!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I write beautiful poetry .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Ive learnt so much.

She married twice! .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I will be 64.

She loved him until the end.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We all went to grammer schools

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

(And it was in our own minds.)

But ive been too sick for many years..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He resisted the act ,that day.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I think the readers, may guess!

She wouldn,t have been !

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Comes on , in middle age.

I was 9 years of age.